piratefiction Chapter 492 Chapter 112.2 - Don't see him within me
Chapter 492 Chapter 112.2 - Don't see him within me
492 Chapter 112.2 - Don't see him within me
Whenever I looked at people in the past or became closer to them, I felt a subtle feeling. It was as if, when such things happened, that scene would always come and haunt me.
Since, in kindness, I was reminded of her.
In happiness, I was reminded of her....
In friendship and bonds, I was reminded of her....
Losing someone was not an easy thing; I knew that very well. For all that time, those memories had constantly haunted me.
That was why, to forget that, to forget my weakness, to forget how useless I was at that time, I devoted myself to my training.
No, being devoted was not the right choice of words. I got obsessed with training, and I still am. Since, when my mind is free, I could not help but remember how it was.
I still dream about those times....But, recently, it was a little different. The reason is evident. I finally came to accept that there were people surrounding me.
At the very least, some people showed concern. For a certain someone, we started on a bad footing, and for another certain someone, I received unrequited favors.
That person did not expect anything from me, yet helped me.
How did I repay?
I did my best, but at the same time, I was not honest.
Since I saw 'her' in that certain person.
That was why, from the start, I knew there was something that had happened in Dakota's past. She had likely lost someone dear to her, and the pain of that loss still lingered just beneath the surface. I could see it in the way her expression had changed when I first revealed my [Weapon Master] occupation. It was just three weeks ago, during our first encounter.
I remember the way her eyes had flickered, a brief but unmistakable flash of something—pain, longing, maybe even regret. It was a subtle change, but being as observant as I am, I didn't miss it. Her body language told me what I needed to know. Her shoulders tensed, and for just a fraction of a second, she seemed to be somewhere else entirely, lost in a memory.
That fleeting moment was enough to reveal the truth. There was a story there, something buried deep in her past that she hadn't let go of. I didn't push her about it, of course. It wasn't my place, and we were just getting to know each other. But the signs were clear—she had lost someone, someone who might have shared the same path as me, someone who had been a [Weapon Master] as well.
As our training progressed, I kept those observations in mind. I saw how she pushed me, how she seemed almost desperate to mold me, to see me succeed. It was more than just a mentor guiding a disciple. It was as if she was trying to make up for something, to fill a void left by that person she lost.
And now, as she stood before me, her vulnerability laid bare; it all made sense. She wasn't seeing me for who I truly was. She was seeing the ghost of someone else, projecting her unresolved feelings onto me.
"Stop," I had said, not just for her sake but for mine as well.
I couldn't let her see that person in me, just as I couldn't keep seeing 'her' in others. It wasn't fair to the person that was being projected.
Not only was it fair, but it was also disgusting. Now that I am in that same position, I can easily say that it is not a good feeling.
Dakota's eyes widened at my words, and I could see the realization dawning on her. She paused, the intense expression in her eyes softening as if she, too, was beginning to understand.
For a moment, the only sound was the gentle ripple of the water around us. Dakota's gaze dropped, and she took a step back as if the weight of my words had finally sunk in. Th.ê most uptodate novels are published on n(0)velbj)n(.)co/m
"You're right," she whispered, her voice barely audible. "I.... I am so-"
I shook my head slightly, not needing an apology. "There's nothing to apologize for. But whatever you're holding onto... it's time to let it go."
I couldn't help but chuckle, shaking my head slightly. "Next time you invite someone to your place for a bath, you might want to be a bit more careful. Most people would take it... differently."
Dakota's eyes widened as she connected the dots, her earlier confusion now replaced with shock. "That's what you meant when you asked if it was okay... Oh, no wonder you looked at me like that!"
I nodded. "Yeah. I figured you didn't mean anything by it, but still... you might want to be more mindful."
She groaned again, her face practically glowing with embarrassment. "I'm such an idiot..."
"Not an idiot," I corrected. "Just... a bit naive about some things. But that's okay. We all have our blind spots."
Dakota slowly lowered her hands, her face still flushed but a bit calmer now. "I've never been good with... this kind of stuff. Relationships, I mean. My life's been about training, missions, and duty. The rest... I guess I never really thought about it."
"Which is fine," I reassured her. "But just remember, not everyone you meet will be as understanding. You don't want to send the wrong signals."
She nodded, clearly taking my words to heart. "I'll be more careful from now on. Thanks, Astron. For... everything."
For some reason, I felt like the master and the disciple had changed at that moment, but well, that was fine.
RING!
And thankfully, just at that moment, the meal arrived, breaking this weird atmosphere.
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After the awkward moment with Dakota and the subsequent talk, I found myself with some free time. The weight of the past few weeks of training was still lingering on me, but it felt good to have made so much progress.
Having completed my training in the Axe, Spear, and Greatsword, I couldn't say I had mastered these weapons, but I had definitely grasped the basics. I knew how to control my body to adapt to them, which was the most important part, especially with the Everchanging Glyph working to optimize my form for each weapon.
I leaned back in my room, scrolling through some magic-related documents on my device. My interest in magic had always been there, but it wasn't something I focused on as much as my combat skills. Now that I had a bit of time, it seemed like a good opportunity to broaden my understanding.
As I flipped through pages on various spells and their applications, a notification popped up on my screen. It was a message from Reina.
[Reina: Meet me in this place. We need to talk.]
The message was brief, and Reina's tone was serious, even through the text. I knew better than to ignore such a request.
Closing the documents, I stood up, stretching a bit to shake off the slight fatigue that was settling in.
Whatever Reina wanted to discuss, it was likely important.
I left my room and made my way toward the northern courtyard. The corridors were quiet, the usual hustle and bustle of the facility replaced by a more subdued atmosphere. Well, at this hour, most of the trainees were still in training. It was Sunday, but there were no moments to rest.
The place was a wide-open space, dimly lit by the ambient lights that lined the edges. Reina was already there, her posture relaxed but her gaze sharp as she watched me approach.
"You are here."
She said, looking at me. She looked like she came from outside.
"The things that you had requested are here."